The cold has arrived, just as I was starting to think it wasn’t coming. It’s mid October and there’s a million things on my mind as the year is wrapping up. My thoughts and concerns never seem to stay the same. College and school is blowing by quicker than ever. I know big decisions are upon the horizon. I still have my eyes set on Colorado University of Boulder. I’ve only seen the campus once over summer. Is that all it takes? I guess it’s just a leap of faith and feel that’s just supposed to come to me.
I struggle with using my time efficiently, or maybe I’m just doing too much. Am I working too many nights? Should I stop tennis to work hard and make money? Should I stop working to grind tennis in hopes of a successful first and last high school season? Am I at the right job, should I be in a field I’m more interested in like a car dealership? Do I workout enough or is it a waste of time. Do I need to do less therefore sleep more? It’s hard to keep up late night homework sessions but it feels like it’s my only option sometimes. Then again should I be more focused in school and using every minute of the day to knockout work, contrarily I can’t help but take a break and scroll on my phone. Should I be saving my money and investing, or blow it all on a bike or 440i convertible. It’s an endless discussion in my head occurring daily, what should I do next.
In a perfect world, I could wake up have a big breakfast, rip through town in a sweet supercar, maybe a McLaren or something badass. Bounce back and forth all day from tennis to working out, playing basketball, skateboarding, eating, sweating, being outdoors. Then finish off with a party joined by friends.
For now I’ll just keep pushing into 2025.